School and cloth diapers

Tomorrow is Autumn's first day of 1st grade and for weeks she has been telling me she isn't excited because school is boring. But she finally broke down today and told me she is scared, scared of meeting new friends. She is starting in the bilingual program to learn Spanish so it will definitely be a new group of kids. I feel so bad for her but I'm sure everything will be great, she will still see her old friends on the playground.
On a different note I am trying to switch John to cloth diapers, with the new baby on the way in January we will have two in diapers for a while and this should save some money. It has been a minor investment so far, I bought 3 covers off the internet for $27 and bought 8 usable pockets with inserts, and AIOs off of craigslist for $30. Not bad, plus Linda made me all those burp rags/cloth diapers and Andrea gave me all her old ones. Hooray! Unfortunately I have been battling a rash on his behind for about 3 days so we are back in sposies. :( For now.

Well I've gotta get these kids in the bath and into bed.....

Shopping for myself

It's not as fun as it used to be. I think I more enjoyed buying what I needed for others, the shower gifts and things for John. After wandering around Target forever I came out with a cute top and some dress shoes. Oh well, they are treasures. Driving my mom home was nice. It is so wonderful being able to help her out now and then. I hope it will work out if she needs to stay here at our house a few nights per week. I can imagine she is going to feel so weak. I hate cleaning house. I wish I could just get it done and be done. So a very ramabalicious post but at least i got it all out

The end of the begining

Lent is over but I don't want to go back to the old ways of sitting in front of the idiot box or wasting my energy with FB keeping up with the latest gossip. There was such a freedom keeping myself from it but I was also out of the loop. Well, lesson learned and I feel refreshed and cleansed. It will be nice to have the old cartoons back for when I just need a little peace and quiet to make dinner or do laundry. Let's hope it works. Well lots to do today after a whole week of spring vacation with the kids the house is a disaster and there is no food in the fridge, except for salad which we have to eat everyday for a week until it's gone.

It's hard to swallow

It came today. It's been hard everyday but today it's been hard to hold back the tears and I haven't even really cried yet. It's not so much hard to swallow but my heart feels so heavy. I want to hold her close and hug her tightly and tell her I'm scared too but I know she's going to be alright. I've never had to be this strong. I have always broken down and cried. Why doesn't it feel right to that this time? I guess it's her time to be fragile and breakdown and I want to be there for her. How hard it must be for others that love her too. The sons far away, the husband who sees her everyday and the sister that just lost her mom last year. It's hard on everyone, but she's mine. I need her. Please God, take care of her. Please.....

Shine your sink and dress to shoes

It's day 4 of flylady's teachings my kitchen has been clean for four days and it feels so good. I have gotten up  everyday and taken off my pajama pants. Yesterday I didn't dress to shoes but wore Hubby's slippers instead oh well I'm not perfect. I find I am able to focus more on getting things done when I start first thing in the morning. Plus, it's nice to have a mentor. Right now the kitchen, the kids room and the living room is clean and clothes are in the wash. I need to get up and put away clean laundry and finish my room and the bathroom. The party is in 3 days and I don't have to feel stressed. You know, you would think that being a SAHM would make it easy to keep the house clean, but as I heard someone else say, "A house is easier kept clean when everyone is gone"

too many days too many thoughts

I guess I expected more out of myself. I thought I could get a blog in everyday, ha!

feb 11th I can't even remember what happened this day (mommy mush brain)

Feb 12th it is amazing how it can take all day to have fun for 2 hours. I don't know what I was thinking taking the dog with me and the two kids to Sunset cliffs by myself. I guess I thought that it would either have more room or be more contained. Crazy! But it turned out to be a beautiful day, I wish it was more about Grandma than just having a party. I heard a few comments about her but not much more. On the drive home I saw the craziest thing.....
 

Feb 13th Church, home, clean house. Matt worked on the new buggy. Hubby wants to take it out next weekend. Presidents Day weekend, would be crazy. It also means babysitter for Boo and hoping the buggy is in working order.

Feb14th Valentines Day I got up early made heart shaped breakfast muffins, got Princess all dolled up for school complete with heart shaped hairdo. I went to yoga, I was late but it felt great. Came home and made hearts that tell Princess why I love her and balloons and candy for Hubby. I got my beautiful pink roses the day before and displayed them on the kitchen counter. I love them.
 

Today, I ran/walked 2 miles from the fire station to the coffee house. I love running. My dog is a good running partner she loves to run and therefore is a great motivator. I put a $10 credit on the coffee house and got a banana for me and Boo to share. Gotta prevent myself from buying coffee and sweets while I am there. Especially becasue I eat enough junk around the house. I can feel the muscles being worked in the rear end and it feels fantastic. I think I am actually gonna feel good in a bathing suit this summer. My main goal is to get in good shape before getting pregnant again, that way it's easier to get back in shape after the baby again. Well, enough said. Nothing too exciting I guess. but hopefully tonight I won't be laying in bed thinking about what I wish I had said in my blog. How does that song go...? If I don't get it all down on paper it's going to kill me....something like that.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe. 

ANNA NALICK-BREATHE

Burnt Popcorn

     This is my peace. Sitting on the big couch in front of the fire dog at my feet, the sound of the dishwasher confirming the fact the I actually got dishes done tonight, I even snuck the bably bottles in there too so I din't have to wash them by hand. Hubby is on his computer in the bedroom and the kids are fast asleep. Princess was so sweet tonight after I read her a story and sang her a song while I rubbed her back, she thanked me and we talked briefly about how it was a good day, then she told me to close my eyes and she kissed me on the forehead. My eyes stayed closed as I breathed in that moment. I held her close fora little while longer and kissed her goodnight. John took a while longer to fall asleep as I rocked him and sang all the lullabies I know. It's a funny thing how you push them to fall asleep but when they do you don't want to let them go.
     A walk around the park today and a visit to Califias magic sculpture garden with new friends really made my day. They had never seen the garden and it made it even more special to share. A stroll turned into a energetic walk with a person that matched my stride. And then we headed home and did a few errands on the way. I knew I should have bought that vaporizer at Target the other day, I sure regretted it tonight when Boo woke from his nap so congested daddy had to sit in the bathroom with the shower running. It made for an extra trip to town tonight which turned out to be a good thing since I burned my homemade pizza and traded it for Little Ceasers. I bet mine would've been better. I burnt popcorn today too, not just a little where you say ewww when you take a handful but so burnt the popcorn was unrecognizable when I pulled in from the microwave yellow smoke was streaming out the top, we had to open all the doors and turn on the fan and evacuate the house! I would've made it fine but I was helping Princess make her homemade Valentines day cards.
 
   
 
My mom called while I was walking to the bus stop with Boo to pick up Princess. Talking to Mom is always a nice thing, weather it be my mom, his mom or your mom. Mom's are the best. And I am always glad to be there for my mom when she needs to talk just like she is always there for me. It's hard when people don't understand you. Not just what you are saying but who you are. How can we expect people to live with us, work and play with us when they can't understand us. Let's make a toast to telling the world all about us.

What's a butler?

     The night didn't start the day off too well. Princess got up with an accident. An accident really?! I guess it happened in her sleep and we are not talking about number one. Well it wasn't too bad anyway, so we cleaned up and went back to bed. Of course I was up with Boo only about two hours later, but he went right back to sleep easily. But you know how it is being a mom, once you're up your mind starts thinking of all that you need to get done and all that you should have gotten done yesterday. Anyway, she wakes up again at about 6:30 and we do the routine again and I try to lay back down for a few more peaceful minutes before Boo wakes up and the day begins. Isn't it my luck he's awake as soon as my head hits the pillow. Hubby gets up and I roll over to grab his hand and hold on to postpone the day just a few more seconds.
     Seeing your baby wake up in the morning can brighten anyone's day. Seeing mommy or daddy's face brightens a baby's face and it lights up the whole room and seeps into your heart. A regular morning as usual except Princess stays home, actually accompanies me to Boo's nine month appointment, and we have to drive all over town today delivering flyers and business cards for the company. Woo hoo, what a day. All ends well, even though because it's the cold season the appointment took longer than it should have, but the good news its he's growing  good and strong. During the drive around town Princess asks me about a movie we say the other day "Physical Me" (Despicable Me) and asks how the little girls were born if they don't have a mom or dad. I had to explain what an orphan was and incidentally she also was curious about what a butler was, gotta love kid questions. Also during the flyer delivery I did something any mom would have frowned upon, I even scolded myself internally; I gave my nine moth old baby some of a chicken nugget!! AAAAAHHHH! I know, i know but I was desperate. Anyway we'll file that incident under bad mommy moves. At home, we play a few rounds of "Guess Who", takes me back a few years, how about you? And pick up the house.
     Tomorrow is my mommy meet up for walking, should be fun I just bought a new (craigslist) jogging stroller yesterday. I figured I should give it dry run before I try to go out with a bunch of other mommies and embarrass myself when I don't know how to use it. If you have ever owned a jogging stroller you know there are stationary wheels and rotating wheels on the front. I figured I needed a stationary one because "I am going to become a runner". I mean hey I ran last week the day after mommy and me yoga when my legs were on fire and it was such a rush! So.....stationary wheel means you have to pull back on the stroller until the thing is doing a wheelie and spin the baby around to turn. Oh yeah, it's not as fun as it sounds. But it works and should be more fun than trying to jog with that standard stroller, which I'm sure everyone was looking at me funny while I tried. But now with my hand me down running shoes (first ones I have ever owned), my super cool jogging stroller, dog at my side and baby safely buckled in I will be able to get my legs, butt and stomach in "I can look in the mirror and smile" shape. Especially since I finally caved and bought my first two pairs of skinny jeans. I love them! Just know I can look better in them if i try.
     Well, it's about that time. Boo's down for his late afternoon nap Princess is playing outside with her dolls and I've gotta get dinner started. Homemade orange chicken, hubby's favorite.  Oh can't forget trying to start up my Mommy and Me or Baby and I (gotta include those who aren't moms after all) so I need to get planning......