Shopping for myself

It's not as fun as it used to be. I think I more enjoyed buying what I needed for others, the shower gifts and things for John. After wandering around Target forever I came out with a cute top and some dress shoes. Oh well, they are treasures. Driving my mom home was nice. It is so wonderful being able to help her out now and then. I hope it will work out if she needs to stay here at our house a few nights per week. I can imagine she is going to feel so weak. I hate cleaning house. I wish I could just get it done and be done. So a very ramabalicious post but at least i got it all out

The end of the begining

Lent is over but I don't want to go back to the old ways of sitting in front of the idiot box or wasting my energy with FB keeping up with the latest gossip. There was such a freedom keeping myself from it but I was also out of the loop. Well, lesson learned and I feel refreshed and cleansed. It will be nice to have the old cartoons back for when I just need a little peace and quiet to make dinner or do laundry. Let's hope it works. Well lots to do today after a whole week of spring vacation with the kids the house is a disaster and there is no food in the fridge, except for salad which we have to eat everyday for a week until it's gone.

It's hard to swallow

It came today. It's been hard everyday but today it's been hard to hold back the tears and I haven't even really cried yet. It's not so much hard to swallow but my heart feels so heavy. I want to hold her close and hug her tightly and tell her I'm scared too but I know she's going to be alright. I've never had to be this strong. I have always broken down and cried. Why doesn't it feel right to that this time? I guess it's her time to be fragile and breakdown and I want to be there for her. How hard it must be for others that love her too. The sons far away, the husband who sees her everyday and the sister that just lost her mom last year. It's hard on everyone, but she's mine. I need her. Please God, take care of her. Please.....

Shine your sink and dress to shoes

It's day 4 of flylady's teachings my kitchen has been clean for four days and it feels so good. I have gotten up  everyday and taken off my pajama pants. Yesterday I didn't dress to shoes but wore Hubby's slippers instead oh well I'm not perfect. I find I am able to focus more on getting things done when I start first thing in the morning. Plus, it's nice to have a mentor. Right now the kitchen, the kids room and the living room is clean and clothes are in the wash. I need to get up and put away clean laundry and finish my room and the bathroom. The party is in 3 days and I don't have to feel stressed. You know, you would think that being a SAHM would make it easy to keep the house clean, but as I heard someone else say, "A house is easier kept clean when everyone is gone"